“You find yourself wondering just what this is: the past or the future”.

At first it took me a while to connect to this book. I started it in May 2020 and finished it just now. I have a bittersweet feeling. Growing up poor but being just as fun and as motivated to search for a brighter future.

“One cannot imagine what a man can endure”

There‘s this thing about a Orhan Pamuk, it takes me the first line only to be transported to that... reality.

Can I ask you something?
Yes. Of course you can.
If you died I would want to die too.
What would you do if I died?
So you could be with me?
Yes. So I could be with you.
Okay.

Son to father.

We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others, that in the end, we become disguised to ourselves.
-François de la Rochefoucauld

“Over and over, I kept thinking I‘ve got to go home and then, for the millionth time, I can‘t.”

Like Theo Decker thinks about his mother and longs for her, today I woke up thinking about mine. Can‘t wait to see her again!